Monday, 7 July 2008

Resignation Day

2nd June 2008

Resignation Day

I handed in my resignation letter today. Liberation. Freedom. Excitement. Fear. Sadness. I go through all these feelings as I submit the letter to the admin manager.
Liberation because my own time is now mine to do as I will, work on my own terms. I now call the shots! Freedom from all the politics that comes with working in an office, I’m now free to be and not worrying how to make my every move at work strategic. Excitement because this means Celebrate Africa is really happening, my dream to see Africa by road is no longer a dream, I am doing it! Yippeee!!
Fear of the unknown: what if I fail? What if all my money finishes on the journey halfway and I have to come back home without accomplishing anything? But it is better to have tried and failed than not to have tried at all( Yeah, I know it’s a cliché, but that’s because it’s true).
Sadness because I have spent four and half years working here, making friends, learning, growing and becoming. Goodbye is truly the saddest word.

It’s 44 days to take-off date. I have so many things to sort out, because of the tight work schedule I’ve had since the beginning of the year, all the planning for Celebrate Africa has been in my head. I have to sort out banking issues, contacts for every country, learn how to use the cameras, shop for stuff, work on the website, raise more funds, and the list goes on and on…

As I reflect on the past 4 years, I’m literally surprised at how far I have come since January 2004 when I was really in a bad place and needed a change in my life. That change came with the job and all it’s challenges and triumphs. I don’t wish that anything happened differently, it was the way it was supposed and for that I’m thankful.

Like they say, when it’s time to go, it’s time to go. All that remains is for me to figure out a way to tell my parents that I quit my job!

Ndewo nu.


Naapali said...

Good luck in your efforts and will be watching and wishing you well

Chioma said...

Thanks Napali.

!!Estella!! said...

I know that feeling. The day I dropped my security pass at the bank (my last job), in VA, USA, I got into my car, put my head to the steering wheel, and cried till I was empty of tears.

I asked God, "What did I just do?" "Where would my next meal come from?" "Am I making a mistake? would I succeed?"...and HIS still small voice told me, "DONT WORRY, I GOT YOUR BACK!" And I dried the tears and NEVER looked back and HE has always got my back!

I played this track all the way home: By GK Real 'From My Heart'....

Ngozi O. (Esq.) said...

With God on your side you'll definitely get to the top and your journeys shall be safe,secured and successful.All the best my Sister.